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When Horses Cry

  • I wrote the following post the day after the shooting of innocent Amish Children in Paradise, PA.  I have pulled it from my Archives because I believe we need to read it again.

The sound of the horses hooves were heard across the cornfields as they pulled the carriages carrying the Mothers and Fathers, Sisters and Brothers, Aunts and Uncles, and fellow neighbors of the Amish Community of Paradise Pennsylvania making their way to the funeral of the man who, just two days ago, senselessly murdered their daughters. “They had already forgiven him.” the press wrote that morning, and now they were on their way to console the wife and children of this man, and to stand at his gravesite and pray that he would find the peace in death that he could not find in life.

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The Last Spiritual Warrior – Living a Zen Inspired Life

“They are an intriguing people.  From the moment they wake they devote themselves to the perfection of whatever they do.”  – The Last Samurai

A friend of mine asked me the other day, “How can I make my spiritual life more than just wanting a new Mercedes?”  In the East they say, “It is better to know the right question than to know the right answer.”  My friend “knows” the “right question”.
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Living the Zen Iinspired Life – If there is no resolve, you might as well stay on the sofa.

“It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell.” – Buddha

Benjamin Franklin once wrote, “Resolve to perform what you ought; perform without fail what you resolve.” So is “resolve” the missing ingredient in most people’s efforts to create real and lasting changes in their lives? Take for example one’s weight loss effort, getting to the gym, trying to stop procrastinating, cleaning that closet, or practicing to be more compassionate, without resolve we might as well stay on the sofa. Now I believe that at all times we already know what we need to do, we just don’t like it. Most people never get pass their habitual behavior of finding “excuses” as to why “they can’t”. My three-year old daughter, who is my teacher on many levels, always says to me whenever I tell her “she can’t”, “But I can try.” I often tell people, “Today a persons word is equal to their excuses.” We talk a great deal about who we can rely on in times of trouble, most of us are never on that list.

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Pervading the Entire Universe

“We say Buddha Nature pervades the entire Universe or God is Omniscient, Everywhere.  Therefore we cannot say, “Not now” or “Not here.” For wherever we are there is Buddha or God.  In Zen we do not look for Buddha or God outside ourselves, they are within us.  We are the gateway.  Everywhere we are is The Pure Land, the Kingdom of God.  What are you waiting for?  If not now, when?” 

- Seijaku Roshi

I often say that in our modern world, “A persons word is equal to their excuses.”  It would also follow that, “A persons potential is equal to their excuses.”  This would include our potential for real changes in our lives which would result in ending our pursuit of and search for what is and always has been with us, and finally enjoying our birthright — joy, contentment, and love.  The only thing that prevents us from “here and now” is our deluded perceptions of “when and where”.

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Shine One Corner of the World

Community Matters

“Quintessential for any resolution to the global suffering we are witnessing in our world today is clearly communion with others.  We cannot expect any change, any relief, any sustainable resolve until we learn the lessons of sharing our life, our gifts, our blessings with others.  Until we break the containment of our very small points-of-views, our egocentric approaches to spirituality, and become part of a larger vision for ourselves and the world, nothing will change and suffering will continue to compound.”  – Seijaku Roshi

A students asked his master, “What follows Enlightenment?’, the master replied, “A lifetime of benefiting others, and oh yes, ten thousand more hours of meditation.”  In his book “Cutting Through Spiritual Materialism”, Chogyam Trungpa wrote, “We have come here to learn about spirituality.  I trust the genuine quality of this search but we must always question its nature.  The problem is that ego can convert anything to its own use.  Ego is constantly attempting to acquire and apply the teachings of spirituality for its own benefit.”

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Getting to What Matters – Do Not Squander Your Life!

“Prosperity cannot be measured by possessions. It can be measured only by who you are in the process of attaining them. Most people ignore what they do to themselves because they are driven exclusively by what they think, they want from the world and from others. Their focus is object bound, purely external. This false prosperity, created by the ego mind, is unconscious prosperity. Otherwise known as success…”

Synonymous with the word “squander” is “to scatter”, which means, “to throw loosely about, distribute at irregular intervals.” Squandering ones life is to live ones life “unconsciously” without “awareness”, and certainly not “on purpose”. Nothing robs us more of any opportunity for authenticity and meaning.

The reason so many people who have so much still pursue more, better, or different, is a function of what happens to us when our focus shifts from “what really matters” and becomes “object bound”. When we forget that the solutions to our lives as well as the worlds are never going to be found “in the world”, they are “within us”, suffering (stress and anxiety) compounds.

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How to Desire Skilfully

One of the many myths about Buddhist spirituality is the notion that all desires or desiring is “bad”, and that the aim of meditation is to eradicate desiring.  When reciting the (four) Bodhisattva Vows for All the third vow is, “Desires are inexhaustible, I vow to end them.”  An impossible promise, therefore what do we do with this cause for suffering?  Robert Aiken, Roshi teaches us, “I have heard people say, “I cannot recite these vows because I cannot hope to fulfill them.” Actually, Kanzeon, the incarnation of mercy and compassion, weeps because she cannot save all beings. Nobody fulfills these “Great Vows for All,” but we vow to fulfill them as best we can. They are our practice.”

Zen-Buddhism teaches that the key to cessation from suffering begins with understanding how Mind is operating from moment to moment, by becoming intimately familiar with its nature and, what we call “the bureaucracy of ego”.  All sentient begins live life from an ego-centric point of view (“regarding everything only in relation to oneself; self-centered.”- where one experiences themselves as separate from other beings, other dharma’s.  Zen-Buddhism refers to this bureaucracy as “ego-delusion”.  All suffering, stress, and anxiety, fear and worriment, low self-confidence, a sense of personal lacking, are a function of “ego-delusion”.  This is when ego-mind is running a story based on the delusion of separation.

This experience of separation also includes everything I perceive I need to be happy or satisfied.  Ego perceives all needs and solutions to one’s life as existing “apart from the being”, therefore – “the pursuit of happiness”.  Whenever we feel stress or anxious it’s because ego is convinced that I lack something and I don’t know where to find it, so I go looking for it.  What follows is a never-ending pursuit of happiness, looking in all the wrong places.  There’s an old familiar fable about this.  “One day the god’s of Olympia got together for a conference.  The god’s were concerned that human-beings if allowed near the Truth would harm it.  So they deliberated on where they could hide the Truth in order that humans would never find it.  You could imagine the suggestions.  One suggested high on the highest mountain top; another in the deepest part of the ocean; another among the stars, and so on.  Everyone also agreed that someday humans would travel to all those places.  Finally (And isn’t always the way in these stories?), the oldest among them stood and said, “I have the perfect place!  Humans would never consider looking for it there, and even if they do go there they won’t believe it.  Let’s place the Truth in each of them.”  They all agreed and remain correct until this day.

Whenever Buddhist talk about “suffering” it refers to a state of mind – anguished, stressed, worried, and delusional.   In resolving “suffering” for ourselves and others we begin by recognizing that “the suffering is within us”.  It is not happening “to me” as if someone else is doing it to me, it is my perception (“the process by which an organism detects and interprets information from the external world by means of the sensory receptors.” – my interpretation of what is happening in the world around me.  This is not some “denial” about the external events or triggers, but understood as an “interpretation” of the events, not based on fact as much as my ideas, beliefs, and/or expectations, which are always personal.  Next, we look at what it is we are “desiring” in order to resolve the suffering, and ask ourselves, “Will it really resolve the suffering?”  If not we apply the Teachings of “Right View”, “Right Thought or Intention”, “Right Speech”, and “Right Action”, (The Eightfold Noble Path, the Buddha’s “prescription for cessation from suffering.)  It could go something like this:

  1. Am I seeing this from every possible point-of-view?
  2. What is my real intention?  Do I want to be freed up or do I want to be stuck in resentment, blame, shame, etc.?  In other word do I want a solution or revenge?
  3. If someone were speaking to me that way would I want reconciliation?  Are my self-criticisms loving, compassionate, kind, or am I not prisoner of my own words, judge and jury, and executioner all at the same time?
  4. #3 just replace speech with actions.

Whenever I find myself “suffering”, I am always telling myself a story.  When I examine the story, usually “Stephen King” is somewhere in there.  No wonder I’m afraid.  So I have a choice, I can either keep reading Stephen King’s story in the darkness of ego-delusion, or stop reading the story all together, or rewrite the story with loving, forgiving, compassionate, kinder thoughts and words.  There is another choice but after nearly forty-years of teaching I find it to be almost impossible for people to choose, including me at times – “Stay out of your head!”, “Don’t indulge the stories!”  Part of our conditioning has taught us that “life is a story” we tell ourselves or others.  No it’s not.  Life is always happening outside the story, the story we tell ourselves and others is just an “interpretation” of what happened.  Once you really know this to be true about life, you realize that there really is a whole “way-of-living” where you get to write the script and act in your own life.  It goes something like this:

  • Beings are numberless, I vow to love them all.

Another impossible promise, but with “right intention”, we arouse skillful effort, and with “right desire” our “way-of-living” this way, outside the story, extends us beyond the limits of our personal identities.  Which are also delusional.

I Love you,  (No not “you” – YOU!)

Seijaku Roshi


If You Never Turn Off, You Will Never Turn On

Albert Einstein wrote, “I fear the day when technology overlaps with our humanity. The world will only have a generation of idiots.”  The dictionary defines “idiot” as, “an utterly foolish and senseless person.”  Ring any bells?  Recently on a talk show another scientist pointed out that the internet and modern technology, such as smartphones and personal computers, and MAC, are intended to be tools for connecting us and bringing our world closer together.  The results have been exactly the opposite.  It is not my intention to knock Apple or Microsoft, I too enjoy these sometimes magical inventions of the 20th and 21st Century that continue to rise out of the evolving consciousness of mankind.  No, this article is about the “humanity” part of Einsteins words.

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Being Spiritual – The Path of the Spiritual Warrior

“The ultimate aim of the spiritual life, is not to be happier or more peaceful , it has to do with the perfection of the character of the being.” – Seijaku Roshi


Spirituality is a Way of Living one’s life based on character, honor, integrity, and service. It is the life of the Spiritual Warrior who lives his or her life by higher standards than the average person. A life guided by the “Principle of Identity”, rooted in virtue, and a genuine sense of benevolence towards all sentient beings.

In The Principle of Identity, I discuss the markings of a truly spiritual life which play an essential role in the warriors lifestyle. It is the spiritual warrior’s view that every human being possesses an inherent character or fundamental nature of Loving-kindness, Compassion, and Wisdom. This Nature can only be cultivated through a serious commitment to train the mind through meditation, adapting and living by ancient principles and practices, and benevolent service or living ones daily life as a benefit for others, so that it radiates out into the world. The warrior does not leave his or her character to chance. Over the years he or she understands that they will meet unexpected circumstances and situations which will challenge them and, that early on in life fear left unchecked, can and will weaken it.

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“Happiness is imperative for my health and well-being, the health and well-being of others, and the sustainability of the species.  But so often our attempts to find happiness end up causing more pain to ourselves and others, because we keep looking for it in all the wrong places.”  – Seijaku Roshi

The global crises in our world today is not an “economic crises”, but rather an “identity crises”.  We are living in the “culture of not enough for everyone”, not because there “is not enough for everyone”, but because we have created a dualistic mentality whereby there is always enough for some but not enough for everyone.  Abundance is the true spirit and the essence of all life.  (Not the abundance people mean when their spirituality is about “their next Mercedes”.)   I call this the “Spirituality of Enough”.  I believe the “spirituality of enough” is “self-evident”.  We need only to, “Behold the lily’s of the field, and the birds of the air.”  By “enough” I mean not only enough for the basic necessities of life, but also “enough time”; “enough patience”; “enough understanding”, “a big enough heart”.

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It Takes a Community

We are witnessing a great ideological struggle both in America and around the world.  One side of the debate views mankind as “consumers” whose only possibility for real and sustainable happiness is a function of increasing ones physical wealth and possessions.  Where citizenship and the individuals value is measured by how hard he or she works to achieve the aims and goals of a free marketplace.  This group would deny the importance of any spiritual values or at a minimum they view the value of spirituality or religious devotion only according to how those values reflect and promote the defined objectives of the free marketplace.

On the other side, we recognize that man’s life and ambitions, as well as the sustainability of the species requires, a firm foundation of spiritual values which are shaped and defined by man’s humanity and not by his or her bank account.  Values which include a devotion to insure equanimity both in the marketplace and society; a sense of responsibility to serve a purpose greater than one’s, self-serving pursuit of happiness; where citizenship and patriotism is measured by a person’s character and a sense of responsibility towards helping fellow citizens and members of society who for any reason, find themselves now or in the future unable to help themselves.

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Take it Back

People tell me often, “I have no time.”, and I believe them but not the reasons they give me.  Having no time is contrived, perhaps unintentionally, but twenty-four hours a day really is enough.  Having no time is what happens to us when we allow the dominant culture to have us, when we have lost our intuitive knowledge of life, and trapped in a life for ourselves and our family of “no choice”, which we created.

There is a Zen saying that goes, “If you have time to breathe, you have time to meditate.” or to just sit, to listen, to eat right, to talk to your children, to rest, and all the other things you “don’t have time for”.  When you live among the natural world as I do here in the Pinelands, it becomes your teacher, ever reminding you about the true meaning of a life fully lived.  One of the lessons is that we are called to face our lives “proactively”.  I am always surprised and in awe of how the deer face, every day, the growing population of cars and humans.  They find a way, with the exception of the occasional road kill.  They make it work.  Never losing a beat.  It is also clear that everything in the natural world “lives intentionally”.  Active in the cycle of life, not just reactive.  I often say that most people’s daily living can be compared to the life of a firemen.  Just going around putting out fires, reacting to one crises after another.  Life is meant to be lived deliberately.  The very notion “I have to.” points to the uncomfortable fact that most people’s lives are not their own.  They are just following a script, given to us first by the dominant culture of our time, and second reinforced by our conditioning, cross-purpose identities, and our complacency.

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Immerse in Spirit

Yesterday much to my surprise the snow fell.  I do not remember the last time.  It struck me so deeply along with what followed that I am here at 4:00 AM writing.

Before soon my four-year old daughter and I immersed ourselves in its beauty and ran outside to play.  It was white everywhere.  The Pinelands was a Christmas Card, my only regret was that my IPhone’s battery died and I could not photograph more of it but, I got Katie making snow angels.

There is never a moment, even in those moments when there is a parent-child standoff, that I am not amazed and inspired, humbled and become the student, in the presence of her “view of the world”.  Snow or no snow she finds beauty and wonder in a small stone or an orange-colored leaf.  I have yet to teach her anything about Buddhism or Zen except for the few explanations when she follows me into the Zendo, and yet it is not a rare occasion to hear her, like yesterday, say, “We need to hurry Daddy and save the Buddha’s before Buddha-land ends.”  The snow had fallen so much by then that some of the statues on the property were already buried.  We proceeded down the Peace Trail, she running, calling me to follow, and creating a fairytale like story good enough for the Disney Junior channel.  From the statue of Buddha where she not only cleared the snow off him, but then with her hands on each of his shoulders she asked, “Are you OK now?” turning to me to affirm “He’s Ok!”; then to “Mary”, as she refers the statue of The Blessed Mother”, explaining to me that  she is a female Buddha,  then finally Jizo.  As we continued around the peace trail toward the bell the story got more involved, with an occasion of course to make a snow angel or two or three, that would protect “Buddha-Land” from being buried.   When we arrived at the bell at the entranceway to the trail, she wanted to ring it and in order to do so, she began to climb a tree stump with snow on top.  I suddenly witnessed both my “parent and age” surface.  “Don’t climb that honey, you’ll fall and hurt yourself.”  As always she continued to climb anyway with me reaching out to support her, stood atop it, and didn’t hurt herself as she rung the bell, “letting everyone know that Buddha-Land was safe and secure.”

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